Purpose of life!
It's been 3-4 months, I sat down and scribbled....! Sometimes in life....it's just goes on and you are there...where you are but life around you is moving every moment, every second, clock is ticking forward. But you feel stillness, you feel stagnant, you feel, you are not going anywhere, standstill!
Nobody can ever believe this, until I express it myself, that it happened to me or I am going through that phase in life, of stillness and silence! I mentioned nobody can believe...because, I am doing all the things, which I am supposed to do, so one cannot say or believe or feel or think that I am going through this phase of stillness and silence!
I can describe this feeling as, how you feel, when your fingers are numb! You know you are touching something but you would not sense it, feel it or recognize what you are feeling or touching! And am unable to decode why it's happening and what's the reason?
I am trying hard to analyise and decode this, but to my surprise I could not find an answer even after 3 months.....! I am good in finding solutions or solving problems, but this time, I am not able to find any answers for my stillness and silence! One thing I figured out is, the stillness and silence is deep within, that might be reason, I am unable to decode.
Am I becoming philosophical about life and deaths or am I trying to find the purpose or meaning of life?? Purpose of life.....I feel at this point, that, it's not the just the duties one have, or the roles to perform, like, mother, wife, daughter, sister, brother, father, friend etc etc....! Purpose of life is totally and entirely different from these....or should we not mix up duties as purpose of life!?
After all we run behind these things so much and in the end.....there is suffering and then we exit!!!! So before that suffering, before that end, should we do something beyond duties, beyond running behind things and people and should we find the purpose of life or will we able to find answers for purpose of this life!?
Since I feel, I know or have understood in past 2 years that, there is suffering and there is exit, there is separation, there is pain, and there is duties, there is running behind....so when these things are known....why not discover something new or find something new, and make life more purposeful!?
Well.....it's not easy to find it or it won't come that easily in one's life, I guess, one should be lucky enough to find the answers to these.....! Am sure, am 100% sure that, if Appa was there, he would have answers to my questions, which could have lead me to light and path and direction!
But now hoping, that he still will help me to find answers, though he is not around physically, but he is there watching me, and he will guide me in the right direction and path. Miss him.....!
Having said that, few days ago it was International Coffee Day, and I would love to wish Appa, Happy International Coffee Day, after all, it's Appa, coffee and me Day!
Nobody can ever believe this, until I express it myself, that it happened to me or I am going through that phase in life, of stillness and silence! I mentioned nobody can believe...because, I am doing all the things, which I am supposed to do, so one cannot say or believe or feel or think that I am going through this phase of stillness and silence!
I can describe this feeling as, how you feel, when your fingers are numb! You know you are touching something but you would not sense it, feel it or recognize what you are feeling or touching! And am unable to decode why it's happening and what's the reason?
I am trying hard to analyise and decode this, but to my surprise I could not find an answer even after 3 months.....! I am good in finding solutions or solving problems, but this time, I am not able to find any answers for my stillness and silence! One thing I figured out is, the stillness and silence is deep within, that might be reason, I am unable to decode.
Am I becoming philosophical about life and deaths or am I trying to find the purpose or meaning of life?? Purpose of life.....I feel at this point, that, it's not the just the duties one have, or the roles to perform, like, mother, wife, daughter, sister, brother, father, friend etc etc....! Purpose of life is totally and entirely different from these....or should we not mix up duties as purpose of life!?
After all we run behind these things so much and in the end.....there is suffering and then we exit!!!! So before that suffering, before that end, should we do something beyond duties, beyond running behind things and people and should we find the purpose of life or will we able to find answers for purpose of this life!?
Since I feel, I know or have understood in past 2 years that, there is suffering and there is exit, there is separation, there is pain, and there is duties, there is running behind....so when these things are known....why not discover something new or find something new, and make life more purposeful!?
Well.....it's not easy to find it or it won't come that easily in one's life, I guess, one should be lucky enough to find the answers to these.....! Am sure, am 100% sure that, if Appa was there, he would have answers to my questions, which could have lead me to light and path and direction!
But now hoping, that he still will help me to find answers, though he is not around physically, but he is there watching me, and he will guide me in the right direction and path. Miss him.....!
Having said that, few days ago it was International Coffee Day, and I would love to wish Appa, Happy International Coffee Day, after all, it's Appa, coffee and me Day!
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