Appa, Coffee and Me

Happy 2020!  Kind of sad, that 2019, I did not write anything!  Well, if ask a question, how was 2019, can’t say, in one word as, ‘good, bad, sad, horrible, fantastic, successful.....’!  It’s very subjective, and it depends on, how you measure and in what terms and what are the things you taken into consideration, when you decide as good or bad or sad or successful or fantastic or  okay or not just okay! You measure, based on materialistic, personal, relationships, or over all? So many areas, may be the happiest, many may need more effort, improvements, many might be disappointing....! So  I generally don’t measure, or give lot of importance to these kind of end of the year or beginning of the year questions and also I stopped doing, the new year resolutions from last two years! The resolutions which I can’t stick to or follow up or it’s the same monotonous things, of exercise/diet/being a better person.....which actually should not be a resolution but a must t...

2018 is coming to an end, with just 9 days left.  I felt this year went very fast than previous years!  Not exactly sure, why I felt this way.  Its been few months I blogged, or sat down to write something, express myself.  Its not that I did not have time or not wanted to sit down to write or share, but, it's just sometimes, in life, it goes on.....and though you may want to, you would not have done it.  There would be no specific reason as such, but still you would not have done it...! But today, thought, as its year end, I should write up something. Sadhguru!!  Sadhguru, in sanskrit means, "True Guru"!  Guru, is a teacher, who guides in right directions, helps you in making decisions, when you are confused, lost or seeking guidance, one who removes, darkness within you, and one who can reveal the form of Formless to the vision of these eyes..! Guru is considered as important as your parents.  We can even say that, he is more important th...

It's been 3-4 months, I sat down and scribbled....! Sometimes in life....it's just goes on and you are there...where you are but life around you is moving every moment, every second, clock is ticking forward. But you feel stillness, you feel stagnant, you feel, you are not going anywhere, standstill! Nobody can ever believe this, until I express it myself, that it happened to me or I am going through that phase in life, of stillness and silence!  I mentioned nobody can believe...because, I am doing all the things, which I am supposed to do, so one cannot say or believe or feel or think that I am going through this phase of stillness and silence! I can describe this feeling as, how you feel, when your fingers are numb! You know you are touching something but you would not sense it, feel it or recognize what you are feeling or touching!  And am unable to decode why it's happening and what's the reason? I am trying hard to analyise and decode this, but to my surpris...

Today is Father's Day! Am sitting in that part of the world, where Mother's Day or Father's Day was not in practice! But today here also everybody recognizes and celebrates, and I guess, it's cause of Facebook, mainly, that everybody get to know what's happening in the rest of the world! And since it's sort of nice tradition I feel no harm in following it!? Last evening I happened to be in a coffee shop, ...since I was waiting for someone so I had a chance to look around and observe....! I love to observe people, and everything and I love to analyze or understand everything going around...! So as I was waiting with my brother, I saw couples coming to that coffee shop, of all ages, there was loud music, and on TV, they were showing how to reduce tummy fat, with some weird(I felt it that way) gadget. They have the most comfortable seats and you can sit there for any length of time, coffee, pastries,sandwiches are served to your table! Next to my table, there ...

Today is June 1st, in my part of the world, its already June 2nd, in many parts of the world, especially in India!  The same day, last year, Appa, my Dad left for ever! He was 88 years old,  to be precise he was 88 years, 4 months and 11 days! It was only 11 months, after my mom left for ever, he choose to follow her...very quickly!  I feel like, standing in a huge crowd, like a crowd in one of the Indian cities, Bangalore or Mumbai or like New York city, where actually you don't have to walk at all, people will push you,  literally and you would be moving with the crowd, in all the directions, the way crowd is moving! Yeah that happens, if you don't control or take charge of yourself and make yourself a way! I feel, the same way, mentally, things are just happening one after another but am just standing still!  I still haven't digest about my mom's passing away and this news came like a thunder storm on June 2nd morning, 8.30, last year......!  I cr...

It's been 4 months,  since I blogged....! But today, I just wanted to share or put my things out, so here I am! This morning I was in beauty parlor, I was getting my eyebrows done....!  It's a small beauty salon, with 4 chairs and couple of staff or beauticians, as you can call them.  I go there, since the people are very nice, caring and I know them very well now. I heard the door opened, the door has a small glass chimes, so whenever the door opens, you can easily know. Since I had closed my eyes, I could only hear, the chime sound and people talking...! A lady came inside, and said "She is my mom, will you do her eyebrows, I need to go and pick up my son from daycare, I will come back in half hour?" So the beautician said, "Sure, we will do"! And again I heard the door chime, and thought, the lady must have left....! Now I heard, the "mom" sitting next to my chair and immediately started talking in hindi, national language of India, wit...

Couple of weeks ago,  I was watching a movie...a Hindi movie or wait a minute, I cannot recollect, which language....these days I watch movies, and it can be Hindi/Kannada/English...so I am unable to recollect which language movie.  But I remember the phrase  in that movie which got registered in my head "God helps those who help themselves"!!!! I remembered my Appa!  That was his favorite phrase, he used to always quote that phrase!  And he had a unique way of saying that phrase, he used to say "God helps....." and stop, and look at our faces, and one of us, used to complete it "those who help themselves"! He used to stop expecting either my mom or my brother or myself, to complete the phrase! And if nobody completes, he used repeat again, "God helps..." and finally one of us used to complete!! Appa has explained the meaning of the phrase, which actually is so beautiful and very meaningful.  It emphasizes the importance of self initiative a...